This is what I ate today.

1 cup soy milk                             (2 POINTS)

1 cup multi-grain cheerios             (2 POINTS)

12 ounce vanilla latte made with non-fat milk       (3 POINTS)                  

Kashi Tuscan Veggie Bake                (5 POINTS)

Healthy Choice Chicken Pad Thai         (5 POINTS)

5 Cups Jolly Time Healthy Pop            (1 POINT)




I accomplished staying the heck away from a huge bowl of candy at work. It being after Halloween and all means there has been candy galore. It's pretty hard for me to stay away but this time I did! One of my obvious problems today was not eating enough! My daily is 25 and I only ate 18. Anyone would ask why that is a problem but it's actually more unhealthy to deprive your body of it's needed calories than to eat more than your daily need. My biggest goal of this week is to stay away from the candy but still mean my daily points or damn near it! It's only Day 1 but one step at a time.

Here it is...for real....this time.

Here I am...again. I gained every pound back and boy, am I ashamed. I am right back into the mindset of "I'll just start it tomorrow". I think being embarrassed and ashamed has really set me back above all things. I look in the mirror and I wince at myself wondering why the hell I let something so great slip right out of my life. I was 130 pounds and sure, I couldn't get completely comfortable and used to being that small but I really was on the way to truly loving my body.

As you can imagine these pounds haven't just appeared all of a sudden. I have felt every pound and my body can really feel it. I have a knee that keeps going out, constant sugar headaches, anxiety, everything all, over, again.

So here I am, slowly but surely gaining back all of the knowledge I took in during my weight loss experience. My body is what I truly own. I am connected to it and I need to treat the damn thing like a temple.